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It's been a while

So talk about not writing in a while. I guess a lot is going on. I'm a little stressed out lately because I've been sort of "in-charge" of the LP worship, and it's a heck of a lot of work. I have to organize music, print out music, help everyone get our stuff together, and it's so tough. Especially when we need to work as a team.

But anyway, I have a lot on my mind. I'm not really sure what's going on with boys right now. You see, there's this guy that I've known for four years. We've basically liked each other the entire four years on and off. It'd be weird. Even if I had a boyfriend or if he had a girlfriend we were still able to tell each other "I love you" and what not, because that's how we feel. He lives in Maine, but I see him when I'm up. But lately we've been talking about seriously trying a relationship soon, and he's thinking about going to school down here. And I don't know what to do. I love him, but I don't like people making sacrifices for me, and I also feel like I don't wanna get into an actual serious relationship with him right now. The only thing is that I've never had an actual long-term serious relationship, and I feel like if I get into one that is more involved he's going to get hurt, and I won't let that happen.

But yeah, that's basically what's up. I'm on February break right now, which is nice. I'm glad because I needed sleep. I've been sleep deprived, very much so. :-p

Hope everyone has a good week.